We married young and hit the road.  All we wanted was Texas dust in the rearview mirror. The rumble of the El was our siren song.

We weren’t afraid because we carried this around like a turtle shell: Church.

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just up the road

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Baptist, Catholic, Greek Orthodox, Church of Christ … ours was a messy family stew that had finally deposited us both in a non-denominational box.

The box was what we knew. The box felt safe.

But boxes, it turns out, don’t travel well, and we were wanderers now. D.C., Chicago, Jacksonville, now this little country corner of the Philadelphia burbs.

Church has been a constant, but it’s been anything but safe. Anything but predictable. Not really a turtle shell, after all.

We thought there was one right way to do church. One right way to be the church. The way we were raised, of course.

But God kept us moving, and he kept our ideas about church moving, too. What had been small and safe became big and wild. Beautiful but unpredictable.

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National Cathedral

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I’ve been thinking about those first Christians. They were “scattered” by persection, made wanderers for God’s own purposes. They wandered, and the church grew.

As we wandered, our understanding of church grew, too.  Always bigger, always better than we knew.

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I’ve sat in a Catholic mass and realized that the Eucharist might be more than the sum of its parts. Much more than the saltines and grape juice of my childhood.

I’ve stood in a gathering of Vineyard women when the doors of our meeting-place burst open with a loud wind. I watched that wind sweep around the room but I knew those doors didn’t open to the outside. What I saw and felt was no earthly wind but Pentacost miracle.

I’ve sat in an Easter morning service when the procession of colorful vestments and golden cross was so beautiful, so celebratory, I could have wept.

I once sat in an old wooden pew. A choir lifted its voice, and I suddenly knew what heaven sounds like.

I’ve seen adults baptized in Lake Michigan.

I’ve seen babies baptized with a cupful of water.

All of it so good.

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calm

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Recently, we’ve taken to driving a long, long way to get to church. It’s something I’ve always said I’d never do. Join the imperfect neighborhood church, don’t go chasing “perfect” miles away. Perfect doesn’t exist.

But I don’t think I’m chasing perfect. I think I’m searching for home. The place where this wanderer can find rest.

Maybe this will be my church for a season. Maybe for a long, long time. Only my second Sunday there, and I was fretting about it instead of worshipping. I could hardly hear the music because I was listening to thoughts like these: Is this the place? Are we right to come so far? Will we make friends here? Or wil we set off searching, again?

The music finally broke through, and I realized what we were singing: Better is one day in your courts than thousands elsewhere.

I have been given so much more than one day. I’ve been given a lifetime of Sundays. A lifetime of small groups and youth groups. Of church retreats and coffee hours.

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We pile the kids in the car and drive and drive. We do it because we need that soft brown bread. We need that sweet red wine.

We do it because one day in His courts really is that good.

 

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